The best artists keep evolving, letting go of their past work.

Have you ever felt this way?

The poor anteater suffers from my trials.
The best artists keep evolving, letting go of their past work.

Have you ever felt this way?

The poor anteater suffers from my trials.

I was listening to Affirmations by the Vedanta Society.


A typical week in my life, pretty sure so many millions of women across the world have these exact same days…
I’ve been thinking, I haven’t seen myself or people of my demographic reflected in mainstream media for nearly a decade now. While that frees us up to define who / what we want to be, that’s one reason I keep on documenting my life.
A century later there might be no record of what Indian middle class urban working women did, in all their diversity.
Luckily I’m not the only one – Women at Leisure is a great record, our friend Smriti is a prolific blogger too, and there are probably more such personal documentation out there that I don’t know of.
Good thing that women have always journaled, at least for the past few centuries. It’s probably because they have always been silenced officially and have had to seek out a way to express themselves somewhere.
My own great great grandmother Rasasundari Devi was the first Bengali woman to write her autobiography.
This was at a time, around 1810-1830, when even basic literacy was denied to women in Bengal, so she had to teach herself to read, and after nearly twenty years, to write. She started writing her autobiography in her fifties when her children were grown. Around the same time, social reform in Bengal had barely started in Calcutta, but she lived in a village away from all this, and so was completely self-taught.
With such precedents, we would be throwing away our privilege if we did not use a bit of it to bring about a collective voice for those not represented in the mainstream. I know we can do more, and I’m speaking from my very entitled perspective, but it’s a start. It’s a purpose – to stop whiling away time and channel it towards expression.
Title re-purposed from a poem by Jim Moore, American poet.

{At the end of confidence, there is only one feeling. Only one.
That one has the capacity to bear all that comes.}
I never left drawing, but I did find it difficult to share drawings after my pregnancy. Not sure where that came from. Was it a loss of self, a disconnect from the past, a need for solitude?
Perhaps I’ll never know for sure. But here’s the latest sketchbook:
I do a really good job keeping the anteater away from my design work. But sometimes he jumps over the wall and blurs the boundaries. And since he usually has something astute to say I don’t really mind. What about you?

Life is not all wine and roses, unfortunately. So then I draw a lot.

And sometimes greater minds can give solace too, for all sorts of sadness.
And then you always have to get on with life.
But the best side-effect is that, you really appreciate the things makes you happy.
Last month we went on a little holiday to Goa. First we visited Marvin & Ellie in their beautiful home in Panjim.



We then went south to Palolem to meet up with some other friends.
